rowan_rose (rowan_rose) wrote in skinny_knickers,

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I don't know...

I am in a pickle. It's really not that big of a deal, but it did throw me for a loop. John got the job with Lowe's and just found an apartment today. In fact, he's signing the paperwork and everything right now. He is planning on moving in this Sunday and Monday and asked me to come with him and his mom to help and see the place he will be living and working. I really would like to do that. I am so excited for him and this would be the most convenient time for me to see his new place.
But I had tentative plans with my roommates this weekend. I feel a little distant from them lately, because they both went and worked at the same camp this summer and are always talking about it and how much they miss it. I love that they went to camp and had a great time, but I feel a little left out. I feel so out of the loop in my relationships with both of them. Right now Steph and I are just sitting here in complete silence on our computers. And everytime I try to talk to her, she seems to be more interested in the computer than in me. Maybe I'm over analyzing this whole thing. I think she's just stressed at the upcoming big stuff in her life, but I wish she would talk to me about it instead of closing herself off.
Anyway, I was looking forward to a nice long relaxing weekend of little traveling and a few adventures and bonding time with my roomies and reconnect with them. But then this came up, and I really want to go and see John's new place and reassure him in this big step in his life, but other than Friday night and Saturday (I'm working 6 hours of tomorrow) I would spend pretty much no time with my roommates and the rest of it with John and his mom (a lot of it with his mom).
I need some advice from you girls. I don't know if anyone reads this journal anymore, but if they do please help. I don't know what to do. Actually typing this all out, has given me insight as to what I should do, but I hate completely dissapointing one side. I hate dissapointing my friends, I want them all to feel loved and appreciated and important to me. I wish there was a win win, but I feel like I have to choose.
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