But I had tentative plans with my roommates this weekend. I feel a little distant from them lately, because they both went and worked at the same camp this summer and are always talking about it and how much they miss it. I love that they went to camp and had a great time, but I feel a little left out. I feel so out of the loop in my relationships with both of them. Right now Steph and I are just sitting here in complete silence on our computers. And everytime I try to talk to her, she seems to be more interested in the computer than in me. Maybe I'm over analyzing this whole thing. I think she's just stressed at the upcoming big stuff in her life, but I wish she would talk to me about it instead of closing herself off.
Anyway, I was looking forward to a nice long relaxing weekend of little traveling and a few adventures and bonding time with my roomies and reconnect with them. But then this came up, and I really want to go and see John's new place and reassure him in this big step in his life, but other than Friday night and Saturday (I'm working 6 hours of tomorrow) I would spend pretty much no time with my roommates and the rest of it with John and his mom (a lot of it with his mom).
I need some advice from you girls. I don't know if anyone reads this journal anymore, but if they do please help. I don't know what to do. Actually typing this all out, has given me insight as to what I should do, but I hate completely dissapointing one side. I hate dissapointing my friends, I want them all to feel loved and appreciated and important to me. I wish there was a win win, but I feel like I have to choose.